my life in the ghetto

9:07pm: your nigga
wow i was really stupid
i cant believe i thought about dying my hair lol
well im bored
and i hate my lj
so im going ot change it
it will be good this time
muahahahah
lol anyways im so bored

8:04pm: omg!
havent done much in a while
but i wrote this recenlty trying to explain my self quickly cuz i amnot good with words and usualkly screw it up

see its the way i work i have low comfidence i am a procastinater im smart (nopt to be bragging liek u know)m and i am ver kinestetic and im really bad with words so if i hurt u or make u mad dont take it personally and enver hold anything against me cuz i say things i dont mean and i do it on purpose when im mad to piss peopel off if they piss me and i ahve become good at it i do it to my parents a lot which is bad and i need to show more respect to my parents but also i talk to much in a away but if i say somthing no one knows when to keep their mouth shut and it ends up hurting me an d others

7:32pm: havent done this in a while
ya i have been places like
myhouse
my dads house
myfriends house
school
ya
so i havent been able to write in my lj
cuz i am lazy
and cuz of ro
and cuz of school
and cuz of so many things
well i got my temps
im not allowed to drie with my dad for some reason only my step dad and mom
i hate their insurance they such
they are mean
i am so hungy
i ate speghetoiiiiiiiii earlier
with meat sauce yum
anyways
well anyways i will make a company that makes speghettios
but it will be called
speghetto-hoes
ya it will be pic of one of those speghettio popel that is as girl and has boobs witha gun in hand lol

12:25pm: so sick
omg i have been sick since fri
my temp would be high at night like 102 ad low int he morning but i would be sick the whole time
it was crazy and ruined my weekend along with my familys
i had the flu i think
i still kinda have it except my tem pis 95.8 and it was liek that earlier it is really low and weird now
i have a stuffy nose and bad cough
i just did my home work and i hope i feel better tonight
becuase i am sappose to go to dinner with some family
well i am out i am doing so stuff on my computer

9:10pm: everything
imr eally calm right now
i am mad at a couple people including my self
im kinda confused
but i have homework but i dont know i never do it any more
i have gotten pretty lazy with home work i get it done but with extreme caution in the time it is due
i have a japenese test tomorrow i will try to study to night if i dont go to bed ina sec i have studied for it long enough itn school thoush i seem to know all of it so i hope to do good in it
i wish everything would stop for a while so i could collect
things are just kinda stresful but that is life adn life keeps on going unless you die which will then keep on going and it will be over people will move on like always
maybe it is no use to live i mean if you are you might as well but it only hurts the earth and others hurt each other i hate that
i wish every one could be nice and get along it makes me sad
i hate to say it but i hate a lot of people int he world
i think people are born eveil like we are reading the lord of teh flie which is basically stating whether people are born good or bad and i think it has shown they are born bad
seriously like people are always like greed is learned it isnt
i think if there were two kids all alone and one had a toy and anothe rone didnt that one would try to take it cuz it was jealous you dotn need to teach others bad things they normally already have them only learning some new traight if you think about it youhave to teach kids to be nice
have manners and such kids that dont have manners are rude then with out the help of it not being taught how to be rude
id ont know
i just remembered things from when i was young
im mostly bored now adays and no one can do stuff they have other activities the only time i have somethign to do on the week days is work basically and i dotn really liek it
it gets boring too it wouldnt be soo bad if time went by so slow it was sickening
i wonder if my finger is broken i thought it wasnt and took it off adn it started to hurt and also the finger has tno resistance it bends back the way it did when i broke it when i use it
ther are a lot of mean people
peace

4:16pm: bored
i am bored i have nothing to do and no one can ever hang out with me i cant wait till i get a car that will be good cuz then i could go to other peoples houses and stuff
so ya bored i think i broke my finger today in gym althought it doesnt feel that way anymore

5:08pm: im at wes's
im at wes's

9:39pm: mary lynn made this and said i could do it to mine so ya fill it out bitches
1. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
2. Am I lovable?
3. How long have you known me?
4. When and how did we first meet?
5. What was your first impression?
6. Do you still think that way about me now?
7. What do you think my weakness is?
8. Do you think I'll get married?
9. What makes me happy?
10. What makes me sad?
11. What reminds you of me?
12. If you could give me anything what would it be?
13. How well do you know me?
14. When's the last time you saw me?
15. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
16. Do you think I could kill someone?
17. Describe me in one word.
18. Do you think our friendship is getting stronger, weaker, or staying the same?
19. Do you feel that you could talk to me about anything and I would listen?
20. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

2:14pm: i forgot an important part
the funniest thing about it is wes fell on my arm and it bent the wrong way so when this happened i jumpeed off the trampoline and ran around his house saying you broke my arm
i ddidnt cry cuz ima big boy
then everyone said it wasnt broken so then it swelled and got really hard yes hard my warm was hard it was fukked up so my dads was like ok maybe something is wrong with it
so they took me in and they said i brok it they girl named angel wasd really nice and teased me the whole time i got my cast on it is a tiring expirence for you arm i should tell yo you have to hold it up for like 40 minutes i dont remember but it seemed long
lol

2:01pm: hi
ya im bored this song is not bad
well i hope snowboarding comes soon
at my dads there was 2 inches of snow that was cool
well i think i am going to dye my hair tonight if i get the right color dye
my mom told me she braced her self when i came back from my dads cuz i was saposed to have my hair dyed but they made a bigger deal about it then ever they want me to grow my hair out to a pony tail but i dotn and they say that my pale skin wil be like more pale and they dont seem to understand that i dont care about that
and also how whne it grows out and they cant grip the concept that i dont care if someone thinks my hair is black half way but then blond they can go fuk them selfs if they have a problem with that
so i m just waiting till 3
im doind something with steve and his friend
o shit i forgot i got like trigun complete collection for only 17 dollars woot its worth 200 at stores and it is brand new
lol
heres a picture of me this summer when i broke my arm
it was wes's falt lol not really he just fell on me and caused me pain theni was sappose to wear a cast thing beside the blue on that was removeable and i would take it off and swim with my boken arm it hurt but i didnt care i also went to a water park
lol this was only a week after i broke it i wasnt sappose to do anythign or even tak of teh cast till 5 more weeks and i took of the cast a week later some thing was wrong with my arm later and it grwe like this bump and i smashed it on acident in math but it fixed it lol i went to a doctor cuz it was hurting th ebump and i smashed it a couple days before and it was normal again well her is the pick
dont mind the shirts they are old all my cloths are from 8th grade so shut up
lol and also ya here i am

9:43am: where the fuk
where the fuk are my faces???

9:43am: this is the face that was sappoce to go with that
.

9:40am: ...
ya im aloud to its just that ike they were like we want you to grow out your hair and be like a hippy seriously they said that cuz my sister is like that shes cool lol and like her boyfriend which is like her husband thehave been going out for along time well his hair is long and stuff but ya they are like your hair color is awesome the way it is cuz i have like 4 different colors in my hair naturally for some reason so i still want to dye my hair so i might today but i dont know if it is a good color of black cuz it said blue black and i was told by my step mom that it would look navy blue like
so i dont konw if i am just going to dye it or if i am just going to get plain black and dye it
i dont konw i think i am doidn something with steve today so maybe after that

6:49pm: ...
im mad right now fuk
this is gay
i was like going to dye my hair and like
then my parents were like no we dont want you to
and i can its hard to do it with long hair
somaybe i willd o it tomorrow cuz ya
and now i have nothing to do but i get to coem home tomorrow it was ok this weekend with my parents
i cant eat anything ether cuz of my braces it is so gay dam
so ya
i wanted to talk to some one on aim but no one is on
i have to wake up at 8 too tomorrow

4:24pm: omgfostrdbtntdieeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee snow
Ninjawaffle779: snow
Ninjawaffle779: snow mother fukker
Ninjawaffle779: snow
Ninjawaffle779: yaya snowbaroding wil be here soon
Ninjawaffle779: snow snow
Ninjawaffle779: yay snow
Cl0ud C0nn3ct3d: lol
lol sry i just love snow yaya snow muhahah
hahahh yay lol
as the wet pooors down i dye
muahha loaloaldsoada !?!?1!?1?1?1

4:08pm: yay it is friday
i made this so i could tell something but i forgot what it was so ya i cant wait till it snows i have to go to my dads tonight
which is sry to say boring but it is good to see my dad and step mom so ya it shouldnt be too bad i just dont have music and stuff cuz i dont ohave my computer there and the internet connection sucks there but i live on a lake which has its good points besides that we dont have a seadoo but we doo have a boat that i have to take a class to drive by my self so ya i will do that this summer
but i hope i am not bored i might becoming home on sat so ya
then i might do somthing with some one call me or im me ya just get to me some how lol
caitlyn we have to do soemthing ok liek NOW
o ya a pck
huh which one???

lol thsi rocks

10:06pm: back from work
yes tonight was good
although my back and my feet hurt but it is ok
the money speaks for its self
as you can see i got good tips
im tire as hel and i have to study on a test for math tomorrow i really dont want to o ya
i have to read like two chapters right a review thing and fill out questions more then i can hadle it makes me sad and more tired i might have to be 'sick' tomorrow even thought i just adds on the stress i might beable to claer my self of some things
i lub you cat lol

4:24pm: fuk school
omfg omg i have this fuking test in math tomorrow dam i dont konw how to do half the test i dont understand it it doesnt make sence andyou dont have to use it in your life i asked so dam
that is so gay i have to actually study fuckiing school

3:45pm: back from the ortho
ya i just got back from the orthodontist it suchs ill have my braces to atleast march
i thought i would get them of sooner
well i am bored and i have work now which makes me mad an sad
cuz i really dont want to go tonight but matt is working tonight also so i have someone to hangout with a little if it isnt busy that is
i cant wait to go snowboarding it is sappose to snowtommorrow and sat with a total inches of only 2 dam that makes me mad i like snow cuz ya you have to have it to snowboard well there is sand but that is gay lol
today we had this thing to fill out about our selfs and it was like multiple choice and if we did drugs and stuff when and if we have ever been liek beaten up
i said i did all drugs all the time i was african american and asian and that i lived in the ghetto ontop of all that i drew bunnie all over my pages about 10 and alot were on the buble things i wrote peter in the bubble fill ins and i drew people and spelling things like i was in first grade it was so great i hope they frame it and or send i to me
i should have kept it it made my day beside work and school and my ortho apointment ruining it
well i am bored so ya
i wanta not be bored i think ill go call matt well if you are looking im me peoples ok now yes now
well ya....
o ya a pic here you go guys and gals
-.'

that pick is so funny makes me GIGGLE

7:26pm: ...
i head sad things like people that get hurt basically for no reason and they dont deserve it..
so sad

7:09pm: wtf
it got messed up her i go

7:06pm: ^.^
yay i am happy the world is good for a sec
i goet my lj working and stuf now i get it more then did how dos it look
i hope it looks good cuz sara spent time helping me with it also
mary lynn ther i wrote it hapy?
huh
i am off now to get an ebay acount
o ya a pic

6:25pm: huh
i ate food it was tuna casseral ya it was good thx mom
it gets dark outside really early its crazy

5:59pm: ...
ya im bored i went to matts today ya
i fell asleep on his bed
we were bored and stuff he gave me his yoyo and it was cool cuz it is fire ball and they are good and hard to find
i remember when yoyos were so cool and everyone had to have one
i was in summer camp half the time and everyone had one and stuff
it was great
im hungry my mom is making me food yay
i use to go to young life but i stopped i realized i never liked to go you get home so late and it isnt even thatt much fun
i just went cuz my friends went and it was something todo
i have a test in japenese class tomorow i hope i do good it would feel rewarding
i think ill post random pictures every time i do a update thing
^.^
i like anime

4:49pm: friends...
my freinds thing is all messed up
it makes me sad
idotn konw how to do anything